The first thing I did when I got to the hospital this morning was
to check on Grecia in the CICU. She was alert, a little sad, and trying
oh-so-hard not to cry, even though tears were rolling down her cheeks. It hurt
MY heart to see her uncomfortable, and yet so strong. Many of us on the team
packed our luggage with candy and little toys and games. The nurses have it
stashed in a box in a room adjacent to the CICU. Twice I saw Grecia slide out
of bed and walk with her nurses to the treasure chest. She wasn’t really happy
about the trips, but the bribe of a treat was motivation enough.
Grecia giving Dr. nita a shot. Grecia wants to be a Doctor when she grows up!
Grecia up and walking!
The first surgery of the day was 4 year old Even. He had an AV
canal repair. When Even was assessed his mother mention he had a speech delay.
She was hoping that when his heart was repaired his speech would catch up.
Alas, not so. After surgery, Even was asleep most of the day. The intensivist
explained that the children get a good dose of medication before extubation, and
then they usually don’t receive pain meds, other than extra strength Tylenol. I
couldn’t believe that these little ones were recovering from open heart surgery
with no pain meds. One of the Canadian nurses said they make North American
kids look like wimps.
Little Even
Next, I went to the clinic to observe Pediatrician Nita doing
assessments on the children waiting for heart surgeries. The actual clinic was
being used to treat adults this morning, so we were able to create and
“open-air clinic” outside under the covered porch, with a nice breeze. That was
a relief since today we were given masks to wear in the clinic, due to all of
the sick (contagious) adults and children.
Most of the parents learn about their child’s heart defects soon
after birth, but have no money or insurance to obtain the surgery. So they come
to the clinic when they know that the ICHF team is in country. And they come
back day after day, driving long distances, and waiting for long hours,
sometimes outside, with no amenities. (We have been asked to bring the roll of
toilet paper in our hotel rooms to the hospital each morning. Many of the
bathrooms at the hospital don’t even
have any! And no paper towel dispensers, just a communal hand towel hanging on
a nail.)
Dr. Nita asks each set of parents a list of questions that gives
some insight to their child’s heart problem. Then she does an oral exam, and
listens to their heart on both chest and back. She asked me if I had ever heard
a heart murmur. No. So she had me listen to 13-year-old Erich’s heart, in three
different places. In each I could hear a woosh, woosh, woosh, but I couldn’t
really make out the heartbeat. Then she placed the stethoscope on her own heart
and asked if I could tell the difference. I felt a little embarrassed because I really couldn’t pick up her
heartbeat. She explained that you really don’t hear much with a healthy heart,
and that the wooshing I heard from Erich’s heart was the murmur. Nita said that
murmurs are rated 1 -6...and a 6 is hardly ever heard. Most murmurs for surgery
are a 4, including Erich.
Soon after Erich came four-year-old Yair. He had an unusual
barrel-shaped chest and what Nita called a “thrill”...a spot on his chest wall
where you could actually feel the murmur, and see it. Nita said that Yair was a
5 on the murmur scale...very unusual. Unfortunately, Yair had a cold that made
him ineligible for surgery during this 3 week mission. More waiting. Yair was
delighted with the little bottle of bubbles that we gave him and didn’t want to
quit blowing.
There were other interesting cases...beautiful children...worried
parents, but I’ll save them for future posts, if they get on the surgery
schedule.
After clinic I snuck into the back of the room where all of the
doctors from our team and the Honduran doctors got together to view the
echocardiograms and select the surgery roster for the next few days. I was
fascinated listening to all of the dynamics that needed to be considered to put
the schedule together. It looks like we won’t get to take over the ICU, due to
the contagious illness (and that feels fine to me.) We have converted the
recovery room into the ICU. This works while ICHF is here because the OR is
reserved for us and no other surgeries will be performed. But there are only 5
beds. So we can’t accelerate the surgery schedule if there aren’t beds
available. And there is only one vent, so we have to primarily select patients
and repairs that will be extubated in the OR. We only have one intensivist, who
can’t work 24/7. We want to give him a break. We need to get the difficult
cases in so they have enough time to recover, but the difficult cases will take
up beds for long periods, decreasing the total number of surgeries that can be
performed. But some patients are too sick to wait until the next mission, which
could be 6 months away. Some of the patients need more than one repair, but
only the most critical one would be repaired. Can you imagine having to make
such difficult decisions?
Dr. Boston from St. Louis Children’s Hospital arrived towards the
end of this consultation with all of the docs, and they began assigning some
up-coming surgeries to him. We met, and both said, “I’ve heard good things
about you”...but didn’t get a chance to chat yet.
While they were reviewing the echos, the docs decided that our
young Erich (13 years old and described above) was a great candidate for
surgery on Wednesday. So while I was still listening to the consult, Erich and
his parents came back into the clinic to get the news that Erich’s surgery
would be done right away. I could see that Erich was really upset, and fighting
back tears. Remember, he was a strong, serious, stoic young man, but he turned
around and wrapped his arms around his mother’s neck...who was slightly shorter
than he was. My heart melted. I knew that if someone told me I was going to
have open heart surgery tomorrow, I’d be crying too. His mother explained to
the staff that Erich was holding onto hope that he could have an orthoscopic
repair through the groin. But Erich had the murmur that I heard through doc’s
stethoscope, and it obviously needed a serious operation..
Today’s second surgery was a 20-year-old young man, Alan. He had
recently signed up to join the Honduran Army, but a hernia was detected when he
was enlisting. When he went for the hernia repair a heart defect was
discovered. While the surgery may keep him from having to go to war, being a
soldier brings one of the best incomes in this country. Alan was out of surgery
and recovering in the ICU when we left.
Alan with his parents.
So tomorrow, little 14-month-old
Sebastain will have surgery in the morning, and Erich is scheduled in
the afternoon. Please keep these boys in your prayers. They are both beautiful.
I understand so little Spanish, but fear and love and pain are part of a
universal, non-verbal language that I do understand.
My brother Gary told me, “you will stand out in Honduras. You are
much taller than them, and you will look like a tourist no matter what you do”.
My mere presence gives me an aura of importance, since everyone there knows the
ICHF team. And since I’m walking around with doctors and nurses, everyone
assumes I am one, too. Even the other doctors and nurses. But the camera gives
me another veil of importance. I get the feeling that they think if I am
interested in taking their child’s photograph it may mean a better chance of
being selected for surgery. I wish I could tell them the truth.
As scary and ominous as open heart surgery is I can see how it
becomes objective. The patient is draped and sedated. The surgeons have tunnel
vision for this one specific part of the body. The perfusionist and the
anesthesiologist deal with the rest of the person. The strong tug at my
humanity and compassion is heightened as I watch these families wait patiently
with great hope for their child’s healing. And then again watching the children
move through their post-op recovery. I think we all agree that we never want to
see children in pain.
PS I had a conversation with the cardiologist this morning. I
told him: “Please, if I get sick, don’t
admit me to this hospital. Drag me to the airport and send me home”. Outside of
the units that ICHF has control of, the rest of the hospital is abysmal. He
assured me, “We take care of our own. If someone on the team gets sick, we take
care of them.” Relief.
PPS I don’t mean this as a partisan political statement, but
... I think if everyone could see what
health care looks like in an under-developed country we would stop squabbling
over the Affordable Health Care Act.